You are looking at quite possibly the worst decision maker to ever live. Not something I enjoy advertising, but I’m past the denial stage… In light of my weakness, I made a huge decision last March that changed just about every part of my life and brought me to a whole new season of my 20’s that I didn’t see coming.
Since our move to Chicago last spring, city life has been everything I dreamed of! The food, the fun of a little hustle and bustle, and best of all, the ability to stroll to a variety of crafted cappuccinos. When we embarked on this journey, I had an idea of what “work” and “success” would look like for me. I pictured dresses, portfolios and blazers- coffee with business meetings and of course myself rising steadily to the top.
I did the daily grind and worked myself up to where I wanted to be, only to find my heart being pulled in another direction. Has this ever happened you all? I seem to be regular in this scenario… It’s almost funny how often I fall into the same traps and habits. Fulfillment has taunted me most of my life, but when I came to know Jesus, I learned I was the root of my own demise. My dreams weren’t rooted in Him but my own imagination. I’ve always found it much easier to follow the dreams I can paint and plan for, but they rarely take me where I need to go.
I’ve slowly learned through trial and error that my painting is nothing compared to the masterpiece God created for me to live out.
THE TURNING POINT
It all comes down to time. How was I using mine and whom was I serving with it. Once I started to evaluate what I was working for, where I was dedicating all my time and energy, and more importantly where I wasn’t… I knew I had a BIG decision coming my way.
Easier said than done right, but it gets you thinking… am I excited about what I do and why? I was excited, but for all the wrong reasons. I was embracing “the grind” actually enjoying it even, but when I imagined myself at the end -just as I pictured it- what would I really have accomplished and what would I have given up? I’m someone who wants to do it all; perfect and be the best at whatever I do, but I had too many avenues to “conquer” I physically couldn’t do it. I realized what would slip away if I were to continue to make the most of my particular career path.
Option #1: Consistent income and steady career path. I would have to give up the opportunity to stay home and raise my children and my joyful creative outlet.
Option #2: Unstable income (if any) and build a business of passion, service, and joy with my family at my side.
Though unsteady, I chose the path less traveled (at least by me) and went with my heart instead of my head. It’s really hard to leave the consistent security of a steady income (I couldn’t have done it without the support of my husband, he’s pretty great) but it was impossible to give up the opportunity to be home with my future children and the creative platform I built to serve others. I spent a lot of time in prayer and jumped faithfully with both feet into a whole new world of blogging!
MY NEW CAREER
I feel very fortunate to call my previous hobby and creative platform my job now! Finding time to grow West of Felicity and learning how to best serve my audience used to be in the spare 20 minutes I had every once in a while. Now, I get to dedicate all my time to researching, creating, and growing a business of my own, and most weeks I do…. When you work for yourself, you work all the time; that was lesson number one!
Here is a little look into my life lately.
WAIT, I’M A BLOGGER?
DAILY STRUGGLES & THE BRIGHT SIDE
The hardest question to answer now is “what do you do?” It’s usually a long-winded explanation summing up everything you just read. I absolutely feel like a fraud in this industry. Granting myself the title that so many successful entrepreneurs have earned feels so…strange! I’m taking on a learning curve with to manual or training guide, just my laptop and me! (With a few wise words from friends and podcasts, shout out to Jules Hunt and Jenna Kutcher you all are the BEST!) I wish I could say that I’m a natural leader and killing the game as a new business owner, but in reality, I’m navigating the newfound discipline I need working from home, battling the comparison game, I’m terrible with finances (now I know for sure) and pretty much learning by error.
On the bright side…I LOVE what I do! I have a craving to create and I get to fulfill that desire while serving others now! I wake up excited and passionate about how I can spread a little more joy and work myself into a routine of some sort. I have so much to learn and with each trial and failure, I’m gifted with one more lesson under my belt. I’m still grinding, just for you and not me. West of Felicity is built on a foundation of faith and the joy the Lord gave me and I feel so blessed to work with Him and serve you all every day.
This is not what I imagined; it’s so much better!
Life is a rollercoaster and I want to share all the peaks, valleys, and seasons in the hope I can encourage or relate to even just one person! I will continue to be transparent and honest with all that I share on West of Felicity. Please don’t take this as advice to quit your job, every situation is different, but more as encouragement to live a life of purpose and joy!
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PHOTOS BY COURTNEY MURRAY